Monday, March 29, 2010

New Adventures

Gary and I don't watch many sitcoms, but we do like "New Adventures of Old Christine." I fell in love with Julia Louis Dreyfus during her days on "Seinfeld." Christine is no Elaine, but she certainly is funny and Julia is a great physical actress. It is a good escape from real life and it is fun to tune in to see what new adventures she will encounter this week.

When I started this blog back in 2006 I wasn't quite sure where it would go. I have to say that I am pleased to have kept up with it for almost four years! There have been times when it has been more active and times when it has been less active. But I don't think it has ever been inactive. I've enjoyed recording the varied adventures of Gary and I ~ a minister and a librarian making a life together along with our two dogs and cat.

This blog has been pretty much a 'catch-all.' At different times I've reflected on ministry, family life, friendship, books, pet ownership, step-parenthood, Schutzhund training, and living with PTSD. I've shared the joy of welcoming Bady into my life as my Support Dog and the bumps we've had along the way in developing our working partnership. I've shared pieces of my journey with God as a follower of Christ. And I am proud to be able to say that I think I have been pretty honest here.

I suppose today's reflection comes about because recently I've been thinking about changing this blog or even ending it and starting something new. But I don't think I will. I like that this blog reflects my various interests and activities as well as my struggles and my joys. I also like that it is a testimony to how I have grown and changed over the years. I don't think that my readership has grown all that much since the beginning, but that is fine with me. In fact I've written this blog mostly for myself. If there are others who find joy in reading it, that is an additional blessing.

The truth is, this blog is not perfect and neither am I! Perhaps that's what I like best about it. So let the adventures continue! I'll do my best to share them here :>)

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

And Speaking of Birthdays.....

Look who showed up to help me celebrate!!

Monday, March 22, 2010

35 and Loving It

Last Monday I turned 35. Considering all the angst that accompanied turning 30, I eased in to 35 with barely a thought. In fact, 35 feels good. I feel hopeful and excited about the future. Life, in fact, seems full of possibilities...... possibilities that have been missing from my life for quite a while.

My counselor explained to me that people with PTSD are often unable to look to the future with any real hope. For the past several years the future was there for me, but not something I could look forward to in any real sense.... It is difficult to explain. It seemed like the years stretching ahead of me simply needed to be survived. Life had already been decided for me and all I could do was live it.

Now, though, I am able to dream and vision and make plans. There is so much life ahead of me and I can't wait to embrace it. Who knows where I will end up or what I might do with the rest of my life. I feel alive and blessed with opportunities innumerable. My counselor celebrates the breakthrough this points to for me. The prison of PTSD is falling down around me and I feel free. And I am 35. And I love it.

Monday, March 08, 2010

Vermont Spring

No, that is not an oxymoron! Spring seems to have come, at least temporarily, to Vermont. The sun is out, the snow is melting and the birds have even started singing. I'm beginning to think about yard work and the container garden I want to plant this year. I'm also thinking more about training with Bady. Pretty soon we'll be getting back outside to the yard and the field instead of in the garage or basement!

Spring also means that it's been almost a year since our first foray into Vermont. Gary and I (and Bady) traveled to Vermont last March for our snow shoeing vacation. That was followed by our interview / introduction weekend in April. Vermont ~ a place I had previously thought very little about ~ has been very much on my mind for a whole year. Spring, Summer, Fall, Winter, and now Spring again..... Thank God for Spring!